Monday, December 22, 2008
I know that when I come home (Brooklyn), time is going to fly past me and I'll be back at school, something I'm a little scared of facing. I haven't been able to register for spring semester classes and I don't know what's going to happen when I get to school. I owe money for fall semester and I will also owe another balance for spring semester. I've been trying to call the school so I can talk to someone and see if I can set up some sort of payment plan so my hold can be cleared. ::sighs:: I know people have been telling me not to think about it and to enjoy my break, but I just really can't help it. I know that I can only handle the situation when it's being presented to me and at this moment, it isn't.
Friday, December 19, 2008
The first song I heard from him was, of course, "Brooklyn Girl". I mean, I am a Brooklyn girl and I guess I would be a little crazy not to fall in love with it, but that's not the only reason why I like this song...maybe it is,lol. I don't know, but I love this song. I just found out that he sampled "Shorty Swing My Way" by KP and Envi for this joint, so that's cool. It was driving me crazy who was on the hook, lol. I just saw the video the other day and was hype because he filmed it in the downtown area of Brooklyn. Also, the scene where he's by the library and the church with that bright ass red door is by my old high school so that's definitely wassup.
Homeboy performed at my Homecoming too for this thing we have called YardFest. When he came out, I was like, "Who is this dude?" until I heard the DJ drop the track. I'm like, "I've heard this song before." So he comes out and raps and I'm like, "I know this song!" lol. He only performed "Brooklyn Girl" and I was feeling the groove, had my hand up and all (y'all know what I'm talking about) and he definitely peeped me on that,lol.
I hope I'm not coming off as a groupie because that's not me at all. I just have a crush on Charles Hamilton and I wanted to express that. UGH, I'm such a loser, lol.
Before I end this entry, check this video I saw last month. Cory Gunz, Charles Hamilton and Mickey Factz freestyling on Sirius Radio. Enjoy!
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
I just don't feel like being bothered with anyone (I know), especially Kevin. Since monday,he's been pissing me off. Today, I'm turning off my phone, I'm not going online. I feel like I should take a break from intereacting with anyone.
I just want to be left alone, I don't want to deal with anyone's problems or relationships, nor do I want to deal with male stupidity, I've had enough of that bullshit to last me for a good 2 weeks. I'm just through, I'm done, like, I'm fed up. I think I just need time to myself.
Kevin...all I know is that he's going to have to make the change that he wants to make and make it quick. I said it in a previous entry that you can't be the same person you were in the beginning of the relationship, you have to change as the relationship changes. I told him already, you can't do and say the things you would have said in the beginnning of the relationship. We've grown (well, I can tell that I have) and so has the relationship. When you're 10 years old, you can't act like you're 5. I just hope he comes to that realization and gets his shit together. I don't want you to change when I'm in front of you, change while I'm away so I know that I don't have to be on your ass for it to happen. Since he's been all talk, I told him your words don't mean much to me right now, you're going to have to prove it to me by doing the things you say.
I'm off to bed
Monday, December 15, 2008
I, personally, am going through somethings right now with school and I wrote a note about it on facebook. I was seriously contemplating dropping out of college. Some people know me as to be dramatic, but I was really serious about this. I told myself, I'll give it to the end of next semester and if I can't get my act together, then I'm out of here. I wrote the note about how I felt and I tagged people that I know would respond, as well as they would have sound advice to give. I tagged one of my bestie's and she didn't respond and shorty was on facebook. I have no problem listening to you rant and rave about how your mother is a psycho bitch, how your boyfriend is a two-timing douche bag, or how you have to watch what you do because you're trying to get down with a sorority but when it comes to me, I'm expecting the same shit from you. You're rude to me on the phone by talking to other people that are around. If you want to talk to them, go ahead, don't call me and answer to every single thing they do. I HATE that shit.
There's that saying, "People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do." I love this girl to death, she is like family to me, but I'm wondering if this relationship is worth salvaging. There would be times where we would talk on the phone everyday, hang out all the time. I understand we're in college now, but there are times where I do not want to talk to her; I will let the phone ring out before picking up the phone because I just do NOT feel like dealing with her and I don't think that's good. I don't feel like talking to her about it because I'm just fed up with it.
I just know that when I come to Brooklyn after Christmas, I will see what's really good with this friendship and where she stands.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
I was reading some kid's blog and his first blog was about him, so I thought to myself, hmm,that makes sense, maybe I should make a blog entry introducing me to the blog world. So,that's what I'm about to do,lol
My name is Danielle S. Brissett but everyone calls me Dani, Dani B. or DB. I'm from Brooklyn, New York from Jamaican parents. I am a sophomore print journalism major at Howard University. My goal is to have a career in journalism as an entertainment journalist. I LOVE it at HU. Even though there are times where I wanna blow the shit up, lol, I couldn't imagine being anywhere else.
I love to sing, dance, write, eat, sleep, hang out with my friends, go out, watch movies, and listen to music. I listen to most types of music. I'm an R&B chick, but I can get down with some Hip-Hop from time to time. Music is one of the things that keeps me sane in this world.
I'm a real cool chick, very down to earth. A lot of people tell me I'm funny so I'm glad that I can make people laugh. I'm pretty honest with myself and other people but some people just don't know how to handle how blunt my honesty is. I try to stay postitive and it usually works out. I'm very carefree and it takes alot to make me mad, but I can get annoyed easily. I can be very shy at first, but once I'm comfortable, I can become very silly and goofy. I'm not a social butterfly, I usually stay reserved and to myself or the people I'm cool with. I'm lazy but when I'm determined to do something, it defintely gets done.
I'm not materialistic, but I love clothes and shopping, even though I don't really have the funds,lol. Some people say I have an addiction, but if that was the case, I wouldn't be able to pay my phone bill, some school fees, my books and things of that sort. My mom told me once that I like expensive things, which I guess is true. I hate cheap looking clothes, that's just not my style.
I have a boyfriend, his name is Kevin _________ (I'm not gonna put his buisnass out there like that, lol). I met him at a get together and we started talking in August 2007, before I left to go to college. We made it official August 27, 2007 and have been together for 1 year and 3 months so far. When I met him, I thought he was going to like any other dude I would talk to: we would talk and eventually lose touch, but he is different from any other dude I every talked to or was ever with. I am in love, I won't front and so is he. I honestly feel like he is the one for me but only time can tell. He gets on my nerves sometimes and I wanna slap the shit outta him, but he remains his composure and I can't stay mad at him forever, lol. He lives in Brooklyn, so yes, I am in a long distance relationship. It is hard because I can't see him whenever I want to, but it's all worth it at the end of the day. That's my pookie and I love him :-D
I think that's enough, I don't have any followers so I really don't know who's going to read this, lol. If you want to know more about me, just hit me up or read up on the blog
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
I just wanted to blog really quick about a group I just got put on to: The Foreign Exchange. They are poppin, lol, that's the best way I can put it. I'll have to find out more information about them, but I've been listening to thier second album, "Leave It All Behind," for the past 3 days. It's great, their music is the epitome of grown and sexy. It's mellow and chill, I can definitely just imagine sitting in my living room with a glass of wine, unwinding and relaxing to this album, lol (My imagination is quite vivid, I know). Since I've been listening to it on imeem, the person who posted it included the instrumentals to it as well, which is a definite plus.
Here's the album
I heart The Foreign Exchange!
Saturday, December 6, 2008
I was under a lot of pressure and stressed. I was jamming to Biggie's "Ready To Die" album and it helped me get through my slump a bit.
Since I've been so stressed, I don't know how to handle it and channel that energy into something positive so I take it out on Kevin by giving him attitude and being difficult. I tell Kevin what's going on with me and how I feel, but I don't expect the responds he gives me nor do I really like how he responds. I honestly feel a bit bored in this relationship and I was thinking about the relationship; what we should do to spice it up and make it exciting again. I don't know what to do yet, but I'll think of something (I am definitely willing to take suggestions).
Music is honestly a love of mine ("My First Love" by Jaspects ft. Janelle Monae, listen to that) and I don't know what I would do without it. [Sidebar: I sing but I'm very conscious about my voice, but I feel that if I keep singing and gain more confidence, I may possibly do something with my voice]. So I'm listening to "Take My Love Away" by Teedra Moses and I decided to look her up on Mypace where I came over her song "Take Me" ft. Rapheal Saadiq. This song just perfectly depicts how I feel about my relationship at this moment, as well as where it stands. There's nothing wrong, it's just a bit mundane.
This is the live version, since imeem doesn't have much of Teedra Moses' songs from her album.
I'm going to bed, yesterday was a looooooooooong day.
Friday, December 5, 2008
Yesterday was the last day of classes and you would think I would have been celebrating with the homies. No, your girl stayed in her dorm to do her fuckin take home quiz with hardly any notes to refer to. I started this blasted quiz at 6:30PM...
it is now 6:44AM (as I'm typing this). It's due today at 3:00PM, but I have things to do tomorrow, so I can't go to sleep and wake up and finish it. I am so tired and stressed out, it's not even funny. I broke down twice today. I feel so defeated. Something inside of me wants to quit and walk away from it all, but at the same time, there's something inside of me that wants to stick it out; something inside that doesn't want to give up. I'm just so pent up with stress that I don't know what to do. To be honest, I haven't felt like my complete self this whole semester.
Have you ever wished that you can step outside of your body? That's how I feel.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
The dreaded F-word
This whole semester had me stressed out
My mom and I got into some shit before I left to come back today about school and my life. She basically said that she didn't care about what I did, if I went to school or if I dropped out and got a job. I felt as if she didn't care what I do, but she was trying to let me know, in her own little mother way, that whatever I do, she'll be happy as long as I'm happy. That's just the condensed version. I guess what she was trying to get me to understand is that it's my life and I have to make these decisions and whatever the decsison is made, she'll "support" me in it. Just the way everything boiled down, I didn't want to even be in her presence, so I just told her bye before I left. My dad drove me to the train station and before I left, he hugged me and let me know that everything is going to be ok. He told me "This is your sophomore year and I know it's hard but stick in there and do your best." He understands a bit more than her because he went to Morris Brown and she went to Borough of Manhattan Community College (BMCC).
I'm studying for my world geography final as we speak and I think I'll do pretty good. I'm just going to take one day at a time and worry about what's going to happen now. I don't want to overwhelm myself and have another meltdown (I've cried about 4-5 times this semester).
::sighs:: I only have this week and the middle of next week and then I'll be home for a bit and then off to spend time with my friends and my pookie. I need a vacation. I can't wait until July (I'm going on a cruise with Kevin and his family).I need the tropical breeze, white sands, palm trees and clear waters NOW! lol