Wednesday, April 29, 2009


Last night and Sunday night, I had some vivid ass dreams.

Aight, the dream I had on Sunday night, Kevin asked me to marry him and everything and I said yes. So We hugged and everything, but I started feeling (you have feelings in a dream? apparantly, yes,lol) a lil guilty because I was a little unsure about marrying him. So I'm all engaged and stuff and everywhere I go, someone's like "Oh my gosh, you're engaged" or "When's the wedding?", things like that. That happened like everywhere I went, somebody was saying something and everytime they did, I felt unsure, like, "Do I really want to get married right now?" So I'm planning the wedding and people were still bombarding me with the same stuff. That was the end of that dream. I typed in engaement and wedding ring and according to,
To dream that you are engaged to be married, represents sexual or relationship needs. You may be trying to resolve your feelings of loneliness. Alternatively, it symbolizes your commitments. More directly, if you are unmarried, the dream may indicate your desires to be engaged.

To see a wedding ring in your dream, represents completeness and eternal love. If you are not married and find a wedding ring, then it may mean that your personal relationship has reached a new level.

Do I want to be engaged? Sure, to be honest, lol, but you know what? I'm in no rush to get engaged or married. I know I have things I want to accomplish and do before I get married and have kids. Plus, I'm young, I gotta get that partying outta my system before I come home to Kev every night, lol. Has our relationship reach a new level? I think so. I think we're at the point in our relationship where we know that this is it right here, just me and him, I'm not going anywhere and neither is he. Plus he met all of my family (mom, dad, brother and sisters) and that's usually the deal breaker, but they all like him so it's all good, lol.

Now the dream I had last night. Me and Kevin are at this restaurant with a couple other people and this guy comes over (someone from my school, but I don't know him like that in real life). So me and Kevin are sitting in a booth and this dude comes over and is squeezing hisself between the end of the booth and me, with his arm around me. So I move over a bit, make some space and Kev just gets up and sits in a seat next to the booth. I'm like "Babe, there's space, you sure you don't wanna sit in the booth?" He goes like "No,I'm good." and has a conversation with other peopl at the table. So Kevin asks me to pass him his jacket and the dude next to me gave it to me and I gave it to Kev. So Kev says "Excuse me." and gets up to go to the bathroom but Nancy (an old friend when I was in camp when I was like 12,13) gets up and follows him. So I'm like, "Wait, where are YOU going?" So she smirks and Kevin laughs, but it wasn't like, ha ha he he, Dani buggin, it was on some, yeah, we fucking and you just found out. So I was like, "Fuck it," grabbed my jacket and rushed out the restaurant. I ran into my friend Kelso (he's my friend in real life) by the train station and he asked me where was Lauren and I was like, "I don't know where the fuck Lauren is,ok?" Then I explained to him what happened and why I spoke to him like that. So I went with him to where they were supposed to meet up and we saw her. As soon as they sat down, somebody comes in from the restaurant I left from and was like, "Kevin can't find his phone, do you know where it is?" I was like, I don't give a fuck about Kevin and his damn phone." and left. I typed in cheating and it read:

To dream that your mate, spouse, or significant other is cheating on you, indicates your fears of being abandoned. You may feel a lack of attention in the relationship. Alternatively, you may feel that you are not measuring up to the expectations of others. This notion may stem from issues of trust or self-esteem.

The alternative meaning is more applicable to me. People expect me to be great. Like a good student, a good journalist, a good friend but I feel like I can't do that, no matter how bad I want to be. Especially with the journalism thing, I'm about to be a junior and I haven't had an internship YET. In my school, they stress that you have an internship after your sohphomore and until you graduate. At this moment, an internship is not important (that's another post), but I REALLY want one. But on a bright side, I don't have any doubts or bad feelings about my future career, I just have to get my mind right.

1 comment:

adri said...

You are a great friend trust me I know! AND dont worry about the internships you will get something and everything will work out for you