Tuesday, June 29, 2010

For A Week

Me and HIM are on a break for a week. We got into an argument on Sunday and it has started since then. I won't front, I miss him, but I'm not sure how he feels. Maybe he feels free, no ties to him so he can move how he wants, do what he wants. I can't get mad at anything that goes down because we're not together at this point and time. When I called my mom yesterday morning, she said I sounded depressed. I think it was because of the break and other thigns that were happening at the moment. I woke up today and felt the same as I did on Monday. Do I feel this way because I know we're not together (as a couple)? Maybe because I feel incomplete/lonely. I haven't been single in about 3 years so this a fairly new feeling. I do wonder what he's doing on my free time.

I called my crush last night and we were on the phone for almost 2 hours. We're supposed to be linking up either Thursday or Friday. I like him, but it's to the point where I want to know more about him. I honestly don't know what he thinks of me. I get the feeling that he's digging the idea of me but I'ld like to hear him tell me.

I told him that I'll hit him up next week. I signed off AIM, being that I stayed on to speak to him. Deep down, I want him to try to contact me and show me that he wants me as much as he says he does. The type of person I am, you have to show AND prove to me what you're saying. Your words can only get you so far, but when the action follows through, you got me. I don't know. Knowing Kevin, he's gonna give me my space. Yes, give me my space, but don't act like you don't care. Do I make any sense? I hit him up yesterday to see if he was ok from a tweet he made. I'm showing I care but falling back at the same time. I'm in the middle right now. I'm thinking if I still want to be in a relationship with him or do I want to break up for good.

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