Take A Break

My boyfriend of nearly 3 years and I have been getting into a lot of fights lately. I think we've gotten into about 3-5 fights since I've been home and I've been home since May 11. He asked me if I want a break maybe 3 times from those fights and I tell him I want to be with him, but after this fight we just got into, I'm starting to really think, "Maybe we should take a break."

I'm looking at other guys, crushing on a couple. But you shouldn't end a relationship based off of a crush, I'm not dumb. But I'm thinking about my career and I don't want to be held back by a relationship. 

I also think about the other fish in the sea. I know there's a whole school of fish out there. I have a good guy who could be great, but what if there's better out there for me?

My mind is all over the place. I don't have anyone to really talk to about this and how I'm feeling because no one I know is in a relationship as deep as mine. Well, now that I'm thinking, I do have one person. I guess I should call her up. I know I have to express this to someone else, especially someone who's in a relationship.

::sighs::

Summer of 2007

I recently graduated in June and was about to become a freshmen at Howard University. I was back and forth between staying at my grandma and my aunt's house (they live 3 blocks away). I had to get my fun in before I went off to DC for school. Parties with my best friends Adrianna & Whitney, working at McDonald's, hanging There were a couple of albums that will always take me back to that great summer:

Shock Value - Timbaland

Back To Black - Amy Winehouse

Luvanmusiq - Musiq Soulchild

And last but not least...

Good Girl Gone Bad - Rihanna (The album that catapulted her into stardom)

The soundtrack to summer 2007. I definitely have one song from each album that resonantes with me. Music defintely runs my life, lol, but I wouldn't have it any other way.

Home

"Home is where the heart is" and my heart is in Brooklyn. I can't fucking wait to come home next Friday, lol. That's all I've been thinking about for the last couple of days. It's OVER, all the food spots gettin ran through:

-Family Pizza by Kev house
-3Ds by my granny fi di BOMB oxtail
-Fisherman's Cove to get some goodas jerk chicken
-Popeyes (There's none close in DC)
-This Jamaican bakery on Flatbush for some chicken patties
-Wendys

I think that's it, with my craving self, lol. I just need some culture in my life. I haven't been home since August when I left to go to school and the boo is making it all happen by buying my bus ticket home. I gotta go see my family too (Granny, my 2 aunts and my godmother). Yeah, it's about to be a busy trip but it will be a good one. Plus I get to see Kevin! lol, haven't seen him since he came to DC in mid-December.

So excited! lol

Missing You

It's mad late, or early, depending on who's reading, lol. But I'm just up, thinking about going back home to Brooklyn and thinking about hanging out with my besties. ALL of them, lol.

I'm thinking about the times I've been with Sexy 6 (Whitney, Naeemah, Jarena, Egypt, Shazel) and we just cracking jokes, reminisicing about the high school days, acting the damn fool and just LAUGHING. Now when I come home, I get to see my lil "niece" Samaya, a new baby in my life, lol.

I'm thinking about all the times me and Milly would be at her house just acting SO stupid and all the new friends I made through her. Her father joking on me and us just laughing like fools, lol. Me tryna find something to eat in her house, it ever fails. I'm thinking about the times I would be chilling with Alley and just talking about life, talking about relationships, throwing little funny things in to say. Then all three of us hanging and it's never a dull moment, NEVER, lol. Hanging out with Dorian, just being so stupid and acting like true brother and sister. Chillin with Rholan's ass and him always saying something to just have me giggle. I'm always in a good mood when I'm with him or any of these people.

All these people have a special place in my heart and I miss them so much. I've been so stressed in D.C. and I truly need a break. Being in the presence of these special people makes everything better and I would love to experience that ASAP. I have to wait until December though. It'll be well worth it though, I'm so excited, lol.

Homesick

I MISS DELAWARE & BROOKLYN!!!!

I only miss Delaware because that's where the fam is at and I miss my family MUCHO. Plus, it's quiet and SUPER 'lax whenever I go home.

These are the things I've missed:

-My Mommy, Daddy, and siblings
-Home cooked food
-Unlimited snacks
-Real cable
-My Dad on the grill
-My Mom and Dad cutting on each other
-Coldstones ice cream
-Having something to do every day/every other day/every weekend
-Jerk chicken
-Oxtail
-My granny's cooking
-Being able to walk/take the bus or train everywhere
-Flatbush in the summer
-MY BESTIES
-Backyard/basement bashments
-Reggae & Soca music being blasted out of every car
-Jamba Juice
-The promenade
-All the food spots I love in BK
-Just chillin or hanging out with my favorite ppl

And last but not lease......

-I miss my Kevie

lol,I hope I didn't forget anything, but that's pretty much it. I had to let it out. School's pretty much fin pour moi (finished for me en francais) so I'm just itching to go home.

"...Yall Know My Name,Charles Hamilton..."

Ok, I admit it, I have a tiny little crush on the new kid on the block (when it comes to Hip-Hop). I don't know what it is about him, maybe his arrogance, his intellect, his word play, or maybe it could be where he's trying to take Hip-Hop. ::shrugs:: I dunno,but I do know that this kid has talent, there's no denying that. He was one of XXL's Top 10 Freshmen and was on the cover with his other counterparts for the December 2008 issue.

The first song I heard from him was, of course, "Brooklyn Girl". I mean, I am a Brooklyn girl and I guess I would be a little crazy not to fall in love with it, but that's not the only reason why I like this song...maybe it is,lol. I don't know, but I love this song. I just found out that he sampled "Shorty Swing My Way" by KP and Envi for this joint, so that's cool. It was driving me crazy who was on the hook, lol. I just saw the video the other day and was hype because he filmed it in the downtown area of Brooklyn. Also, the scene where he's by the library and the church with that bright ass red door is by my old high school so that's definitely wassup.



Homeboy performed at my Homecoming too for this thing we have called YardFest. When he came out, I was like, "Who is this dude?" until I heard the DJ drop the track. I'm like, "I've heard this song before." So he comes out and raps and I'm like, "I know this song!" lol. He only performed "Brooklyn Girl" and I was feeling the groove, had my hand up and all (y'all know what I'm talking about) and he definitely peeped me on that,lol.

I hope I'm not coming off as a groupie because that's not me at all. I just have a crush on Charles Hamilton and I wanted to express that. UGH, I'm such a loser, lol.

Before I end this entry, check this video I saw last month. Cory Gunz, Charles Hamilton and Mickey Factz freestyling on Sirius Radio. Enjoy!

The Things I've Missed Over The Summer

So,I'm in my TV-less dorm room, and I decided to get on YouTube, watch some videos. I watched a few videos and have realized two things:

1) I LOVE being Jamaican (well, at least being from Jamaican descent)

AND

2) I miss 2 of the things any Jamaican in the world (or at least in the tri-state area) shouldn't have: Usain Bolt crossing the finish line &&. the Jamaican float at the West Indian Day Parade in Brooklyn

If there is one things Jamaicans don't miss when the olympics come on: it's the meter dash races. Everyone is glued to the TV, watching the person (or people) representing their country do their thing (I have experienced this and have memories,lol). I'm kind of sad I missed it because I really wanted to see it and I know I would have been mad hype,lol. That's history right there. Plus my boy did the "nuh linga" dance after he won with the Jamaican flag on his back. SO sick,lol

As for the Labor Day Parade (as people from NY call it), I had an OK time. There were previous times were I had more fun than I did this year. I played mas for the 2nd time with Sesame Flyers and it was cool. But I watched some YouTube videos of the HOT 97 (a local NY radio station) float and they had Machel Montano (the soca king), Elephant Man (Energy God), Aidonia, Serani and my baby daddy, Tonny Matterhorn. Mi luv 'im ("I love him" in patois) ,lol. I had to buss out the Jamaican accent real quick,lol. He was supposed to come to the parade maybe 2 years ago, but he got deported and couldn't perform in NY and he was here this year. Since I played mas, I couldn't get to see him... now that I think about it, I could have gotten to see him. My cousin wanted to go see her man ting (as Milly calls them,lol) and as we were walking, we passed the float. I am honestly contemplating on not playing mas this year because of that,lol. Plus, them costumes are a pretty penny (I payed $208).

Besides the things I missed (a tear for both, lol), I MISS KEVIE!!! His mom took him to Canada for a family wedding this weekend and he can't even get to call me because of the long distance/in another country charges. I feel so lonely. He txt me earlier in the day to let me know he was ok, but still. I really wish I could get to talk to him. I keep looking at my phone, waiting and hoping that it will light up and I see his number, but deep down, I know he can't call me. I know he's thinking about me though. UGH, this sucks...

Oh Well, Going Back To Del(aware)

I know, I haven't been updating lately, but everything has been so crazy. I've been really busy. Now that I have some time on my hands, I can update.

This was a very eventful weekend. I'm glad that I did a lot of things this weekend, being that this was my last weekend in Brooklyn before I go back to school. Today, I'm leaving to go to Delaware to spend time with my family. Then on Thursday, I'm leaving to go back to Howard. So I'll start my weekend from Friday

Friday: I woke up at 5:30 am to go to the YRC. We were going to go to Splish Splash that day. we got on the bus by 9:30 and got there by 10:30. I haven't been to Splish Splash (a water park in Long island) in like 5 years,lol. The last time I went, I had no one to go on any rides with me, since I was with my parents and little siblings. I had a really good time with my friends. It rained when we were about to leave and I was really glad about that because we got to go on all the rides. Me after I changed into my bathing suit. This was the first time I wore a bathing suit all summer,lol

Alley & I. She was my partna in crime for the summer. I love this girl

Me, Robert, Jess & Alex. Jess was our superviser over the summer at the YRC.

We got back at 6:15pm and I chilled at Alex's house for a bit with her peoples. Kevin lives right down the block so I went to hang out with him at his house after. We watched "Perfect Stranger" and then I fell asleep. It was a loooooong day,lol. Kevin called me a cab and I went home. I went to sleep at 1:30am.

Saturday: Mellissa woke me up with her phone call. I was glad that she was because I had a lot of things to do that day. I got ready and left my house at 9:00am. I went to the bank to cash my check. After that, I went to go get my hair done but my hair dresser wasn't in. I met up with Alex and we went to find her sneakers. After that we went to meet up with Mellissa, who was getting her hair done. I got my hair done there as well. I got there at 1:00pm and left at 3:00pm. I took a trip to Manhattan to buy an outfit. I went to 34th St. and found nothing. then I went to SoHo, hoping that I would find something for the party. I remembered that Whitney worked in SoHo, so I went to visit her and lucky me, she was about to go on her lunch break. We went to grab something to eat at Wendy's and went to Necessary Objects to see if I could find something. I get a text from Alex saying that Milly said that we are on our cardigan flow, seeing as how Milly bought a cardigan from J. Crew and Alley was wearing her cardigan from Hellz Bellz. I already had a cardigan so I went home so I can get my stuff together to go to Milly's house. I got to Milly's house at 8:00pm and we were just chilling, waiting for people to come so the party could get started [Sidebar: Saturday was Milly's going away/birthday party. My ace boon bestie is going away to SUNY Morrisville this Thursday]. It got jumping around 11:30pm, or whenever the DJ started playing reggae,lol.

Kamilah, NaNa & Vianka

Kamilah & I rocking our Hellz Bellz

Milly looking so cute,lol

Alley looking fly with her Hellz Bellz & new Nike's

We were on our cardigan flow. I love these girls. They're like my lil sisters

The Cool Kids: Lance, Kevin & Ray

Dorian (my lil brother), Najeeb & Rholan "tekking" a pose

Mellissa's cake. It was red velvet

Rholan & Alex dancing

Milly, Lance, and Ray

The party was over at 3:30 am. Me, London (Milly's friend from high school), Alex and Monica (Alex's little sister) slept over. We didn't go to bed until 5:15 am. We woke up at 10:30 and were just chilling. Alex & Monica were the first to leave. After that, I helped Mellissa pack her clothes for school. We all got ready to leave at 2:15pm. I went home to get ready for my date.

Sunday: I got home, took the quickest shower and got dressed. I had to pick Kevin up from work at 5:00pm, so I wanted to leave my house by 3:00pm so I can get my toes done before I go get him. I get out the shower and see I get a missed call from Kevin, but he was at home. He didn't go to work because he got home late from the party. I waited for him to come over so we can start our date. First, we went to Flatbush so I can get my toes done. We hopped on the bus to Atlantic to go to 42nd St. so we can have dinner at our favorite place: Olive Garden. Before we ate, we took a trip to Jamba Juice

I LOOOOOOVE Jamba Juice,lol. We (Kevin & I) were so happy when we got our Mango A Go Go,lol

Then we ate dinner. I love that chicken alfredo, hits the spot,lol. It was just real cool and relaxing. The waiter we had was a really cool guy, he took care of us and was very polite.

I wanted to take a pic. I was going for the preppy look. I think I succeded,lol

After dinner, we took the Q train to Coney Island. That was a long ride,lol. I fell asleep while we were listening to his iPod. We got off at West 8th and were just walking around on the boardwalk, talking and just enjoying each other's company. There's a pier farther down the boardwalk, where Kevin and I spent majority of our time there. We talked, told each other how much we loved each other and were just enjoying being around each other. We had a mini photoshoot

My baby, giving me a kiss. I love it,lol

My train leaves at 4:00 PM , so I've been chillin since I woke up. I do miss my family and can't wait to see them. I will miss Kevin and all my friends. I know I have to go back to school and get on my grind. I'm kind of ready and then I'm kind of not, but I just have to take everything one step at a time

Incorporating Some Culture In Our Lives

So today was the last day for the Murakami exhibit at the Brooklyn Museum of Art and the boo and I made our way there (it's right up the block from my house). The "security" or the workers were telling people not to take pictures but people were clicking away, all I saw were flashes,lol. I got 2 pics in

This one is cute, so I took a pic, lol. This is Murakami's charater, DOB, also his alter-ego (I think that's what one synopsis said)

I liked this one because all the jellyfish eyes and faces make one big face.

Don't I look so cute? lol, I liked that specific statue

I really enjoyed going to the museum (especially with Kevin). I liked the exhibit very much. After this trip, we decided to include more culture in our lives by going to new restaurants (trying new food), going to the museum more often, other things that include culture, we'll try it,lol. From the museum, we went to Subway to grab something to eat. We then walked to Atlantic Terminal/Mall and I had to get my new addiction: Coldstone's ice cream, lol. I swear I am addicted to their ice cream. Just last week, I had it twice, so sad, lol.

Look at me, cheesing with my sweet cream w/rainbow sprinkles in hand, lol

I enjoyed my ice cream on our way to the promenade (one of our many spots). We just chilled there, talked, looked at the "waterfall", just enjoying each others company. I had a really good day.

Such A Busy Lady

I've been, yes, I know. Wednesday after work, I met up with Kevin at his house. We went to get some food and went to his granny's house. After that, we went back to his house and watched "First Sunday", then I went home and went to sleep. Thursday, I went to work, but we got off early because my boss was in major pain. I went home, changed and surprised Kevin at his job by meeting him there. He didn't know I was coming and was sooooo surprised,lol. We went back to his house so he can get ready for us to go to the movies. I was so tired that I fell asleep on his couch. After he woke me up, we hopped on the train to the Court St. movie theaters. We went to see Hancock

I had no clue that it was a comedy as well as an action movie. I honestly didn't know what to expect from this movie and like my boo said, as the movie got closer and closer to the release date, you learned more about the movie in the commercials. I enjoyed it, it was funny and entertaining. Plus, you can't really go wrong with Will Smith. After the movies, Kev bought me ice cream and while we were about to cross the street, this car pulls up and the person in the passenger leans over the driver and yells out the window, "What the hell you doing?" I'm on my phone,bout to check a voicemail and I thought Kevin knew who it was. I was bout to say,"Handle your friend, whoever she is", until I take a good look and I see it was my cousin Danniella. So they pull up to another curb, out the way of traffic and she comes out and we start talking, catching up on some things. After about 15 mintues, we said our goodbye's and went on our way. We hopped on the train to go home. Kevin rode the train with me all the way home [Sidebar: It's been a while since he's done that. He's getting a little too comfortable,lol]. He left and I got ready to go to a party. I met up with my cousin on the A train and rode it to 34th St. We got there and her two friends and Shannel were there waiting for us. As soon as we got there, we got in. The party was aight; the club was more like a lounge (in my opinion). The only best part of the party was when the reggae was being played, of course, lol. We all left the party and Adrianna's friend got us a ride home. I got home at 5 AM and was exaugsted. I went to sleep a quarter to 6 AM. I woke up around 1 PM and got ready for the 4th of July.

You know how most 4th of July festivites include BBQ's, fireworks, watermelon and american flags? Mine consisted of none of the above,lol. One of my friends were supposed to have a BBQ for me to go to, but that didn't go down, due to the fact that she had her own plans. I went to go meet Kevin at his job. When I got there, we just found out that he didn't get off until 5:30 OM, an hour from when I got there. I just chiled with him a bit, waited for him to get off. His "little brother" works at the aquarium as well, so we all left together. I was starving, so we took a walk to the McDonald's by his job and got a grab to eat. We then hopped on the train. he got off before me because I was going to my bestie Mellissa's house. I chilled at her house for a bit and then we went to her friend Vianka's house. Whitney came over to chill because the BBQ plans flopped on her as well and I didn't want to leave her hanging. We left Vianka's house to get some liqs for the evening. After that, we made our way to Sullivan St. to chill some people from there. We were all drinking and some were getting high. Majority of us were drunk and some of us were real nice, lol. We were all just chillin in front of the buliding, chillin and I was waiting for Adrianna so me her and Whitney can go to a party. She FINALLY got there and we left to go to this party. Now, it was all the way in the Dumbo area and I have never been there before. I also was supposed to go see Kevin after I chill with Mellissa, but I knew Adrianna was gonna be ranting and raving, so I went with her to the party. We got a dollar van to drive us close to the party and we met up with Adrianna's friend from Clark Atlanta as well as the host, who is from Morehouse. He walked us to his building and I was on the phone the whole way, upset because it was getting late and I wanted to see Kevin. I had a feeling that I wouldn't be able to and I had the sourpuss face majority of the time. We got into the house and it was dark as hell. There was "Purple Kisses" by The Dream playing and I was like,oh hell nah,what the HELL is this? I left because I lost service and went downstairs to the lobby to talk to Kevin. I spent the whole time there. When it was over, this guy Adrianna was talkin to came to pick us up from the party. He was mad cool, as well as his friend. They both were attractive so that's what was wassup,lol. Damien (the dude whipping it, who is talking to Adrianna) dropped me off at Kevin's house. He and I watched this movie called "Kids". I swear, this movie will have you thinking. Such a shame....but anyway, I went home in the morning and was knocked out.

My Day (June 24th)

Today was a...very long day. I am very exaughsted, but I need to get my feelings out. I guess I can start from 12 AM, when I was at Kevin's house.



So, lately, I've been going over Kevin's house to hang out. I like being over there, I just feel comfortable. Plus, his family likes me, so I don't feel threatened or uneasy. We were chillin at the house, holding each other, kissing, watching TV and such. It was around 2 AM and I was laying on him on the couch and I told him that I just wanted him to hold me. As he was holding me, I was thinking, "I really can't live my life without him. And if I had to do, I would be so sad." Thinking this, I started to cry. He asked me what was wrong and we talked about that I was thinking. He told me that he felt the same exact way. He also told me that I am the only one for him and that he wants me to be his wife, to have his children, to live in our house and have the life we planned for ourselves together. We exchanged our "I love you's" and I was still being held. Then I started thinking about the two times I was very hurt (Blain & Ramel) and I just couldn't stand being hurt by Kevin because against my will, he definitely has a great piece of me. I also love him with my heart, mind, body, and soul and being hurt from someone that you love that intensely would just damage you in the worst way. I started crying again and started telling him why I was crying. He told me that he would never do anything to hurt me and that I shouldn't worry about that, nor should I think about things like that. After us talking a bit, I called for a cab and went home. I got home by 3:20 AM and called Kevin to let him know that I was fine. I went to sleep at 3:45 AM.



I woke up at 6:30 AM and got myself ready for my best friend's graduation. I left my house at 7:20 AM, bought a croissant at the store and was on my way to the train station. I got my hair done, I was looking very nice and I was just feeling good about myself, vibing to A Tribe Called Quest and N.E.R.D. on my way to her house. I got there around 7:40 Am and we left at 8:10 AM. The graduation was at the chapel at Columbia University on 116th & Amsterdam. It was a really nice graduation. Her graduating class is small, so a group of them would go up with their "teacher" and the teacher would say a few things about the student, then give the student a chance to give thanks or say a little something. When my best friend was about to go up,she was crying a bit and I was just so proud of her. It started at 10 AM and ended at 12 PM. After the ceremony, Mellissa (my bestie) was talking pics with her friends, walking around, just being herself, lol. We ended up going to this chinese restaurant (it was a real restaurant, not the hood chinese food spots,lol) called Ollie's on 84th & Broadway. I had chicken & broccoli with fried rice. The food tasted good and the rice tasted clean, like it wasn't fried off a caked up wok and whatnot. Mellissa's dad was driving and me and her were just knocked OUT in that car, lol. As soon as I woke up, it started raining. They dropped me off home around 3 PM and I thought that would be the end of my day until...



...the rain cleared up and I called Lauren. Due to the weather, I still wanted to see if she was coming to Manhattan so we can chill, like we planned. She let me know that she was still coming and I left my house to go to Kevin's so we can leave and meet with her. I got to his house and was waiting for about 15 minutes. When we were about to leave, she called and told me that she was there, so we left and hopped on the train to get her. We got there and went to my favorite place, Johnny Rocket's, lol. [Sidebar: I do not, repeat, DO NOT, wear shoes of any sort but today was special, so I wore these loafers I got from Payless. Now, at this point in my day,my feet were killing me. So I'm making the decision to not buy anymore shoes from Payless. These joints are fucking up my feet]. We started walking down Broadway and I was showing her the sights, the different stores and things like that. It was cool and so was I. Eventually, my cool was wearing and I was starting to feel the pain on the inside of my right foot. We go into YRB (Yellow Rat Bastard) and just walking on the type of floor they had was KILLING me. So I was gettin upset and was telling Kevin how my feet were killing me and he says, "Just be tough for me, ok?" He definitely wasn't in my shoes (literally) because being tough was out of the question. I was starting to get upset. We're still walking, bout to reach Canal St. and Kevin asks me, "Wassup with tomorrow?" I just shrug my shoulders, because I didn't know. So we get to Canal and I let go of his hand so I can hold on to the rail with dear life. We get to where the we wait for the train and I sit down in relief. I didn't want to talk and Kevin sat between Lauren & I. Kevin was trying to get me to talk, but it wasn't working. We get on the train and the pain was HITTING me, literally. I am gripping my arm, damn near in tears due to the pain and Kevin asks me what's wrong. [Sidebar: What the fuck do you think is wrong with me? My fuckin feet are in the worst condition and I could not take the pain any more. Like, what the fuck else would be wrong with me? You should tell by the look on my face that I'm in pain]. So we get to the LIRR train station to drop Lauren off [Sidebar: I'm sorry Lauren for ending the day like that, I was just in a lot of pain and it was making me really upset] and after we leave, I ask him is he's taking the Q or the 2 or 3 train with me. He asks me, "Do you want me to go with you?". Now,I am in pain and am fighting my body to stand and you're asking me questions. All you had to say was a simple yes or no. So I ask him, "Do you want to come?", he says "It's up to you what you want to do." That just did it for me. So I say to him, "If you want to ride the train with me, ride the train, if you want to take the Q, take the Q. I don't care." All I was caring about was getting off my feet. So he says, "I'm taking the Q" and I left him right where he was. That was so fucked up to me. You know I'm in pain and you're going to leave me like that, not make sure that I get home and am feeling alright? So I got on the 3 and am trying not to think about my feet. As soon as I opened up my door, them shoes were off. By the time I got home, they hurt so much that I started crying. I was so tight at Kevin that I wasn't going to pick up his phone calls. Personally, I would've ignored them, but when he called, I was blasting my music. I was going to ignore his phone calls, not talk to him or see him tomorrow and go home without saying shit to him. He calls me again and I pick up because I know that I would have a feeling on my heart if I didn't tell him what was going on through my mind.

I only got 3 1/2 hours of sleep and I am exaughsted. I'm off to bed.

Meeting The Fam

Yesterday was kind of a long day. Kevin took me to Queens to meet his aunt and his big sister (who share the same father). I had a good time and wouldn't mind hanging out with his sister and her boyfriend again. I would like to come back to Kevin's aunt's house though because his cousins weren't there and I have to meet them.

I was taking forever to get ready because I didn't know what to wear, I didn't know how to do my hair, I just felt like everything was going downhill. I eventually found somthing to wear, slicked my hair back into a ponytail and finally came downstairs. It was starting to thunderstorm, so Kevin and I walked to his house to get an umbrella. I was REALLY hungry (I hadn't eaten since Friday and when I did, I only had 2 slices of pizza for the whole day). After we got the umbrella, we went to this Jamaican spot by his house and got some stewed chicken with baked macaroni & cheese. We hopped on the B41 to Atlantic Mall and bought our ticket for the LIRR. We were on the train, just cuddled up and kissing each other. It was so cute,lol. We got off at Queens Village and walked to his aunt's house. I met his aunt, his uncle, his other grandma, and his cousin in law. His other cousins weren't there and Kevin said that if they were there, I would have had a better time. Kevin was just catchin up with his aunt and cousin in law and I was bored because they were talking bout family and things of that sort, speaking in creole. I was DEF out the loop,lol. Around 10 PM, Kevin's big sister and her boyfriend came and picked us up. Now, from what Kevin was telling me, I thought that she was going to interrogate me and make me feel nervous, but I was actually comfortable. They took us out to eat at a diner. Whenever I'm around people I don't know, I usually am quiet and soft-spoken. I guess I was a bit quiet because she asked me my family were church going and I was like, "No, I'm just quiet when I'm around people I don't know." She was like, "Oh no girl, you better get used to us if you gonna be around for a while." Lol, that was funny. After a lil late night meal we went to see "The Incredible Hulk"

The movie was cool for what it was. I won't say it was wack, but it was aight. I'm not gonna sit here and say, "OMG, this was the best movie I've ever seen in my life", lol, but it was cool. if you're into the whole super hero, comic book thing, then this movie is for you. After the movies, they took me home. It was a cool day. His sister was real cool, she's a funny one. her boyfriend was real laid back and chill, not for the drama or confrontation, like myself,lol.

I Missed My Girls

Today was a nice day. It wasn't too hot, there was a nice, cool breeze flowing and I got to hang out with my girlies for a bit.

My good friend Egypt lives with her boyfriend and we (Jarena, Naeemah, Whitney & I) came to hang out at her house. This is the first time I've gone to her house (in general). She just recently moved into that apartment and the apartment she moved out of, I never came to visit her in. It's a nice, cozy 1 bedroom and I defintely got a homey feeling from being there. We chilled there, cracking jokes and conversing. After that, someone brought up the tape that we made. Lol, now it all started where Egypt, Naeemah, Whitney and I had to make a tape for a project. After that, we taped each other doing stupid stuff like :

-Doing a talk show
-Play fighting
-Having a fashion show

just to name a few,lol. It was so crazy because we looked younger, thinner, lol, all that. I was kinda skinny and looked really goofy (well,to me). At that time, I definitely was self-consisous and my self-esteem was low. I have grown into my looks and am a lot more comfortable with myself. Following the "home movies", we went to Egypt's room and looked at pictures of ourselves and were just reminicing. We said we should take more pics, make more home movies, and have a girls night in. We discussed about the girls night in and hopefully it goes down on Sunday, like we said. That would be really cool. We haven't had a sleepover in...like 2 years,lol. The last one was at Jarena's house, well, all of them have been at her house,lol. This is the oldest pic I have of all of us together.



This was in 11th Grade



This was May 16,2008 for my birthday

Waiting...

This is a pet peeve of mine: waiting for people. NOW, my cousin is at her friend's recital and me and her are supposed to go downtown to check something. The recital started at 1 PM and it is now 3:19 PM (as I type). I am fresh (showered) & dressed, ready to go. When I want to do something, I just go and do it. I hate having to wait for people and I don't like when people are waiting for me, it makes me feel bad. This is the 2nd day in a row where I had to wait for this girl to finish what she's doing so we can do what we previously planned. Well, she has something that I need to get from her. Plus, it's Sunday, stores close way earlier. I'm not stressing it, well, not that much. I mean, we're going to the club tonight and I have no shirt to wear. ::sighs::

Speaking of the club tonight, my boyfriend will be there. Now, I've had a previous experience where I went to a party with an ex and I was not happy at the end of the night. I know how I am and I am jealous. I know Kevin won't OD, but it's these biddies I'm worried about. I just hope that none of these females pull a stunt or anything. But other than that, nothing but positvity for the night, ya diig? lol

So yesterday Kevin started his first day of work at the Aquarium (in Coney Island). He said his day was cool. I'm happy that he got a job because he was really looking for one for a minute and now he's found one. Kinda sad because we won't see each other as much as we have, you know? But he's working and he'll be getting money of the things he has been wanting. After work, I went to go check him. We went to grab some pizza at our favorite spot (Family Pizza, Flatbush & Parkside, good stuff,lol). After that, we went back to his house and watched some movies (Borat & Dreamgirls). I never saw Borat and watching it for the first time had me ROLLING, lol. It was really funny. After our lil movie thing, we left the house to meet up with his friend David and my cousin Adrianna because we were going to the chinese buffet by David's house. I had a fun time with my people. When we left the chinese buffet, we took pictures on the way back to David's house. We got to Dave's house and were just chilling, chatting up and being silly. Kevin and I were definitely being all lovey-dovey that night, him always asking me for a kiss and me always wanting to be near him, hugging him.

Song Of The Week: "Here I Stand" by Usher, the title track of his new CD. Kevin put me on to it,lol. I love this song

SUPER Bored

OMG. Now I know I am bored when I blog twice in one day,DAMN,lol.

Aight,guess I'll talk a bit about some thangs. While I'm in Brooklyn, I'm staying with my grandmother who lives in the apartment I spent 1/2 my life in. With my grandmother lives my uncle (who's like 30 something), my cousin (mid to early 20s and is never here), and my grandma's boo (he's hardly hear, pretty convinient). I pretty much have privacy when I'm here, my grandma stays in her room, her boo is out at work and my cousin is never here. When he is, he stays in his room. My uncle goes to work as well, but he's here in the early evening. Like just now, he came in from picking up his 3 year old daughter. Me, I like to have things my way, which usually works when no one is here and that's the way I like it. I'm here, chillin, catchin up on "The Real World: Hollywood" (which, is soooo good,lol), and in comes Ms.Melah (my lil cousin) staring at me like I did something. Lil missy, I been here before you were even thought of,ok? lol. Anyway, I feel that I need to be out all evening (at least between 4 and 11PM) because my space (the living room is where I'm staying at) is being occupied. Like,when I wanna watch a lil evening TV, my uncle is in here, chillin watchin sports. Kinda annoys me, but there's nothing I can do because things have been going a certain way before I got here, you know?

Which is why I really hope I get this internship. And if I do,I'll probably get a job because I want to be out of the house as much as possible. I say that now, but I know at night, there are things I want to do and having a night job will conflict with that.

Trying To Recap...

Since I've been very busy since I got home.I am actually very tired and am going to blog before I go to bed.

May 14

I didn't get much sleep since I got home very late the night before,so as soon as I hit the couch a.k.a. "my bed", I was knocked OUT,lol. I woke up at 8:00Am and took a shower and left around 9:15AM to pick Kevin up from school in Manhattan. I get out and walk to the place where I'm supposed to meet him and as soon as I reach the spot to meet him, he's right across the street. So he crosses, gives me a kiss and we go back to the train station to go back to Brooklyn to go to breakfast at IHOP. We get there and have breakfast, which was pretty good,can't lie,lol. We walk to the train station and get on to go to Flatbush Junction. We get there and go to the nail salon so I can get my nails done. I normally don't get tips,but I was in the mood,so I got them done. They're not long,pretty short and that fits me. After that, we walk to his grandmother's house. Funny thing,I used to live in the same building as her,but I used to live on the other side. Anyway,we get there and he talks to his granny and other people he knows. I said hi and just chilled at the table. My girl,lol, Tatie Michelle and sleep at the time. When she woke up,Kevin called me to come talk to her and we did. We talked about school,how I should come to Haiti for carnival, things like that. Then she starts talking to Kevin in Creole and he answers her in English and she wants him to tell me what she said. She said how I was very pretty and beautiful and how he chose a good one. She also told him that he should treat me right and not let me gert away. Since I'm so pretty and he's so handsome, she told him that we would have cute babies.Lol, I thought that was funny a bit,since he says the same thing. Then we go to his house and chill a bit and he walks me to the train station. I get home and eat some oxtail and rice and peas I bought from a local Jamaican restaurant and that DEF hit the spot,since I've missed that soooooooooo much while I was in D.C.,lol. I'm chillin in my house and my friend Gleronise was in SoHo. I decided to meet up with her and spend time with her before she went home in GA. We hang out and I get home, more tired than I was when I first got into the house.

I'll blog about Thursday (yesterday) later today. Today is a VERY busy day so I won't be able to blog about Friday on Friday.